Rant On Religion

I have a real problem with religion. I think being spiritual and believing there exists a higher power is great, but I draw the line at structured religion. I believe religions are just a way to have power over people and control them in an unhealthy way. Religion is just not natural, it is an idea that has been created by man and forced onto others. 

My biggest problem with religion, and specifically Christianity, are the "rules" set forth. As I've said before, I think the entire concept of no sex before marriage is absurd and extremely archaic. But I also strongly disagree with many other things, including the bible's "stance" on gay marriage.

The bible was written by man, it's a fact, god did not come down and whip out a quill pen and ink jar and start scribbling away. For people to rely so heavily on the bible, other than for short spurts of inspiration, is ridiculous. Religions are cults, and for people to be unable to see that is upsetting. 

Using "god" and "the bible" as an excuse as to why you believe something is the cop out of all cop outs. By simply telling me that you think a certain way because "the church told me to" is completely juvenile. You are an adult, you have a working mind of your own, use it. Think about WHY the church has set forth these rules and regulations. Everything has a reason and if you're unable to find a specific need for a certain rule chances are it was implemented to control. 

If you aim to be a truly spiritual person you should be able to love unconditionally. Humans are amazing, they truly are. The diversity our world has allows us all to be a unique person. People should cherish that and appreciate it, why on earth would someone want to take someone's individuality away? 

The saddest part is, in following religion, people think that they're doing what god wants them to do. They are trying to please "god" and make him see they are worthy of his love. When, in reality, if there actually is a god, they are doing the exact opposite of what he would want. If there is a god do you actually believe he would condone hatred and judgement? That he would want you to do or be anything other than what he intended you to do or be? 

I think people who follow religions need to take a deep look into themselves and ask themselves if this is actually the way they want to live. I know I am my own person and I am more than capable of making decision for myself. I was given a brain for a reason and I do not intend to hand my freedom of thought and self expression over to the church, I refuse to be controlled by anything or anyone other than myself.

Take A Hint

I know I'm going to sound like one of those annoying girls who are trying to prove they are sought after, but it has to be done. 

When someone gives you multiple excuses as to why they can't hangout, without offering other options, they do not what to see you. It really is as simple as that. I know it's harsh, and I know some people have a hard time understanding, but taking a hint will save you from tons of embarrassment and/or disappointment. 

I can't tell you how many times I've had to come up with different excuses as to why I can't see someone. If I'm always "out of town" or "have a lot of work to get done" or it's always "one of my friends birthdays" I just don't want to see you. I get that I should be upfront, and tell someone the truth, but that's a lot harder than just making up a lie. And I also have an irrational fear of hurting someone's feelings/being the victim of a psychotic break. 

Once you get put on my "do not hang out with" list it is nearly impossible to get off. Unless you happen to catch me at a time I'm feeling vulnerable and am needing extra attention, you're probably never going to change my mind. With each denial I get more and more annoyed by you and am less and less likely to accept your invitation. 

Also, a good way to make sure of the fact that I will never hang out with you is to be very vague and noncommittal with your invitations. If you just ask if i want to "hang out," I am far less likely to say yes. If you come to me with a set plan, even as simple as a restaurant you want to try or a movie you want to see, and at a specific date, I am much more likely to accept. We're getting too old for just "hanging out." If I wanted to just "hang out" I would do it with my friends, people I actually know I enjoy spending time with. 

So, I'm sorry that I can't be honest when you ask me if I want to get together, but at least I don't expect it in return. I know when I'm getting jerked around and I'm not one to keep trying. I'm very good at making very little effort.

On Pain and Heartbreak

Sometimes I wish I was one of those people, the kind I secretly hate, the kind who have never really felt true pain or heartbreak in life. They live such a naive existence, it's something I'm nauseating by, yet extremely jealous of. I wish I could have their mentality. I wish I could just be happy, have nothing aching inside me. But at the same time I don't.

I feel like part of being an adult is to know pain. There was a quote I once read, I have it saved somewhere, that went something like, "the definition of childhood is a life yet touched by tragedy." I couldn't agree with this quote more. Tragedy changes you, whether you're willing to admit it or not. Perhaps in some ways it changes you for the worse but I believe in some ways it changes you for the better. It makes you a more thoughtful person, you acquire more depth to your personality. Living a life of rainbows and sunshine doesn't lead to a person with much else to offer.

There's a different emotional connection you can make with a person who has felt pain. It's hard to explain, but it's a much deeper feeling, I guess it's what real friendship feels like. Maybe those who haven't been touched by tragedy feel this with each other, but I guess I'll never know. Maybe it's the fact that we can relate to each other on a deeper level, even though our "tragedies" are completely incomparable, but my friends who have been through shit are much more on my wavelength than friends who haven't. I feel as if my friends who haven't are not quality friendships. It may just be a coincidence, that I can easily group them into these groups, but I think it may be a lot deeper than that.

I think your whole being, your whole personality changes when you go through something. Something clicks inside of you and you get a little bit more of a clearer view as to what exactly this life's about. But maybe I'm kidding myself, maybe we are all just collecting pain and the more we collect, the more lost we actually get. I guess there's two ways to look at it. But as much as I would love to just be oblivious and carefree, I think I value the lessons and hardships life has handed me. I think they have made me a stronger, more well rounded person. And in the end, I'd rather have depth to my personality and interesting stories than be someone who has danced through life without tripping. 

My Thoughts on Sex

Let's be honest, if I wanted I could probably write an entire book on what I think about sex, maybe an entire bookshelf, give me a few more years and I'll write you a library. There's no doubt in my mind that I will be writing more on the subject, but for now, I'll try to get to my main point.

Everyone needs to lighten the hell up about sex!! Honestly, sex is one of, if not the most natural part of our lives. Its the reason we are here. It's how we were created and most likely the reason as to how we choose to live our lives. Without it, we would be nothing. But despite this, it is the most shunned and taboo subject of our society, and I think that is sad. I'm not trying to diss religion, but if we're being honest, religion is the main cause of our sexual repression. We've all been biblically brainwashed to think that sex out of wedlock is a dirty, evil thing, when that's simply not the case.

Sex is a beautiful part of life. It allows two people to join and, not to sound cheesy or anything, but become one. Even if you're not doing it to spiritually bind yourself to another human being, fucking is a fun ass activity!! Who in their right mind wouldn't enjoy sex? If it was really such an awful thing that was established purely for the purpose of reproducing, why the hell would god make it so awesome?! 

I believe that we are given sexual urges for a reason, which I think is pretty fucking clear, to DO IT! Not to be judged or shunned because it. I'm sorry I actually pay attention to what my body is telling me and give it what it needs. When I'm hungry I eat, when I'm tired I sleep, and when I'm horny I fuck, it's as simple as that. There's a reason our bodies crave sexual activity. It does the body good, it releases endorphins, it keeps you young and beautiful, and it's great exercise!!